Monday, October 20, 2008

Do you have a problem with me?

The most absurd things occur when it is least expected. A few minutes ago in a very enigmatic matter I would just simply say “shit happens”, worst it falls to me. How can I be so stupid? Forgetting that I’ll always be unguarded no matter how I try to deal with this knotty life. I thought it’s easier to deal with morons but the thing is they were given special skills because they knew how to play the game.

If you wonder what I feel right now, I would say that I felt embarrass to myself because I was rejected. Part of me feels annoyed that if I wouldn’t consider what my parent taught me I would definitely in a brawl. Damn! How can I let someone step on me, to think that he is nothing but a “moronic faggot”? Forgive me! I have nothing against the transsexual actually I have lots of friend who belong in the third sex. However when you encounter someone for the first time and annoys you, steps on you but then you felt like nobody stands behind your back. It really feels awful! Yes I’m hurt that I need to consider the things that other people would say even that I know in myself that I had no intentions at all. If I had my way I would just change myself the way people wanted me to be but I cannot. I was raised with the idea that as long as I never step on someone I could do whatever I wanted to do. But as I grow old I was involve in a very shallow society, who would judge you the way they see you. Anyway bad publicity is still publicity. I don’t give a damn to what would other people say even If hear even if it a smear campaign regarding myself because I am raised well and I knew that. So do you have any problem with me?

Friday, October 10, 2008

SHIT HAPPENS!

Sometimes the sensibility of a 1 year old is better than a comprehension of an adult that is what I learned in my life. Or better yet saying to a dog sit or roll over is easy than understanding a human being saying “I’m thirsty, can you please give me a glass of water?” Sanamagan! Is that difficult to understand or it should be predefined in other languages. If there is an easiest way can somebody tell me so I can be at least understood? I’m a human being who also needs to be heard! Hate it!

Friday, September 19, 2008

Top Ten Mad Scientist

10. Johann Konrad Dippel
Born and raised in Germany's Castle Frankenstein, 17th-century alchemist Johann Dippel became noted as the inventor of Prussian Blue, one of the first synthetic chemical dyes, but most famous for his endless quest for elixirs of immortality. Rumors of his experiments on human corpses may have inspired Mary Shelley's legendary character that bore the castle's name.




9. Wernher von Braun
At the age of 12, an intrepid Wernher von Braun loaded his toy wagon with some firecrackers and shot off across a crowded German street. It was a sign of things to come. The brains behind Hitler's V-2 rocket program arrived in the United States as a prisoner of war and went on to be its champion of space and lunar exploration. While putting people on the moon, von Braun also mastered scuba diving and philosophy.




8. Robert Oppenheimer
The Manhattan Project's head honcho was never reserved about his sympathies for socialism and his conflicted feelings over dropping the atomic bombs, and was ultimately stripped of his academic and political power for it. Despite those controversies, he's also remembered as a man his grad students called "Oppie," who learned Dutch and Sanskrit just because, and quoted a Hindu holy text at the sight of the first atomic bomb test.

7. Freeman Dyson
Respected nuclear physicist and prolific writer Freeman Dyson moonlights as a science fiction writer's dream. In 1960, he touted the idea that in the future humans may need to construct an artificial shell, now called the Dyson Sphere, that would encircle the entire solar system and make maximum use of the sun's energy. Dyson wholeheartedly believes in extraterrestrial life and thinks we'll make contact within the next few decades.


6. Richard Feynman
Part of the Manhattan Project's team of geniuses that developed the atomic bomb, physicist Richard Feynman went on to become one of the most important scientists of the late 20th century. Far from the stuffy professor type, this free spirit explored music and nature, decoded Mayan hieroglyphics and picked locks in his spare time.

5. Jack Parsons
When Jack Parsons wasn't busy co-founding the Jet Propulsion Laboratory, he was practicing magic and calling himself the Antichrist. This mysterious bad boy of the space program had no formal education, yet still managed to develop a rocket fuel that would guide the United States through WWII and into space. Tragically yet appropriately dramatic, Parsons blew himself up during a lab experiment at his home in 1952.

4. James Lovelock
This modern environmental scientist and inventor of the world-as-superorganism Gaia Hypothesis has been dispensing dire predictions about climate change and our world for decades now, many of which have come true. He's not shy about spreading one ultra-gloomy forecast; given the current ecological crisis, a massive die-off of about 80 percent of humans by 2100 is inevitable, he believes.

3. Nikola Tesla
This is the guy you picture pulling down a giant electric switch in a shower of fiery sparks. Tesla, who is credited with the invention of the wireless radio and the AC generator that kick-started the electrical age was even born, fittingly, during a violent lightning storm in 1856. He was also known as a manic genius that slept little and loved to put on a good show, often using his own body as a conductor in public demonstrations.

2. Leonardo da Vinci
Between painting the most revered masterpieces of Renaissance art, Leonardo da Vinci somehow still found time to tap into his inner eccentric. The Italian's scientific sketchbooks, most written in mirror-image cursive, are a fantasyland of oddball machines and brilliant designs, many which would never come to fruition and some that would be built many centuries later, like his rudimentary helicopter.

1. Albert Einstein
He's certainly got the mad scientist hair thing down. One of the last century's most celebrated scientists, Albert Einstein turned physics on its head with his theories of relativity, and made enormous contributions to the fields of gravitation and quantum theory. He also liked to take his sailboat out on the water on windless days, "just for the challenge."

























The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.

The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.

The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.

And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference.


Tuesday, September 16, 2008

Sigh

There comes a time when I stare blankly at everything, maybe it’s a part of what I felt last night. How come you can totally ignore that I’m hurt? Something that I was trying to say over and over again unfortunately I am not heard. How many times that all the things I’ve said will be ignored? Is it me who had a problem? Over and over again I am taken for granted probably because I’m into the least of his priority. How could you not exert some effort when I feel bad? How could you overhear all the things that I’ve said? You know all night what I’m trying to imply but you never wanted to accept what lacks of you. Anyway it’s your pride that hinders you. Sigh! How I wish I could feel my significance in your life. At least make me feel that I’m a part of it.

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

BOY FAJARDO

My father and I never get along ever since; probably we have a different perspective in life. S-T-R- I-C-T can be an appropriate description with a very witty mind. Definitely he would always prefer a direct to the point opinion and he hated talking to idiots. I remember an instance that he was teaching me in my Algebra lessons and I would give him a look saying “can you please repeat” while in my mind is asking what the hell is he talking about then he would repeat it on the second time and then would asked me to solve the equation for him. Unfortunately Math can never be my forte; I maybe a Fajardo but I don’t enjoyed calculus that much so what he did is walked out. He is also my sensei taught me the Basics of Karate; chops, blocks, kicks and punches are our bonding moments. Papa together with Mama never failed to educate me on how to be civilized, even as a kid they would take me on different restaurants to just show me the table set-up and the table etiquette and the decorum per se. If you would asked him if he spanked me he will be very proud saying “yes” with a follow-up that it’s not yet enough, which took me years to understand. Upon meeting people and seeing them I understand the importance of punishment when a child commits mistakes. There are instances wherein “sorry” is not enough more often it is used as a grounds for mistakes for we can always say the renown statement. I maybe 28 but when Papa started to stare at me I will shut up and behave, luckily I inherent it when I gone mad and see the “Tiger Look” I can make somebody be quite. Ha! Ha! Ha! Thanks Papa!

But if you would analyze the very reason why we disagree is because I am sometimes his mirror. Well we have same fear which is injection, were both hardheaded, we see and feel supernatural and we are hated by our superiors. Papa is not into crying, he is the type who never allow his emotions to overrule him as a person. When I cry he will be mad instructing me to so something, it’s because I am their only child and when the time comes he just wanted me to be independent. You might see Papa in other way but he is the most honest person not used even with white lies and possesses a strong faith with GOD. Papa will always be my hero, my comfort zone in this tiring battle with life. It’s a good feeling perhaps a sign of relief ending whatever indifference we had. I had no regrets having him as a father, I’m proud and I love him most.

SA MUNDO



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